Max is a complex individual. Sometimes he likes having his head scratched, sometimes his tummy.
Just kidding, he really is far more complex than that. Odds are I have simplified him and his life through writing about him. I tend to focus on his chaotic energy when going for walks or his bottomless pit of a stomach and the corresponding desire to eat anything he can find. These features are certainly true, but I am often reminded that Max is more than a shedding, scavenging, compassionate goofball.
Just the other night we put on the movie Fantasia. While the kids were asking a million questions, I looked over and saw Max calmly attentive to the serene music and captivating colors. Maybe he was simply zoning out or imagining he was in the calm, quiet world of his fantasies, but I like to think there are many different sides to Max: the run around and chase after squirrels side and the contemplative, enjoying classical music side.
I know there is at least a side of Max that loves attention. He always bothers guests endlessly for pats and tummy rubs. And I know there is the side of Max that craves time to himself. Some nights and mornings I have to look in every room of the house for where he is hiding to make sure he is not left outside all day or all night. There is the side of Max always ready for adventure and the side willing to sit with anyone who is sick or sad.
Max has a head and a tail, literally and symbolically – multiple, sometimes contrasting, aspects to his personality and presence in the world. Through his own complexity, Max has taught me to look for and value the complexity in everyone around me. No human is a stereotypical, one dimensional character. We all have heads and tails, metaphorically. We all have joys and sorrows, serenity and chaos, doubts and certainties swirling within us.
I think my relationship with Max is only made better when I am open to his complexity. When I don’t try to narrowly understand him as one type of thing. And Max has taught me the same applies to all my relationships.
At the same time, I see the consistency holding Max’s complexity together. He may have a head and a tail, but they are both sides to the same dog. Observing Max’s consistent traits helps me understand him just as well as paying attention to his diverse qualities. And thankfully Max is consistently loving and gentle and joyful.
Max has taught me to look for the consistent qualities in the people around me along with the diversity. Observing the complexity helps me have some compassion with myself and others – recognizing one action is not the fullness of who I am and may be shared out of a sense of pain. Observing the consistency helps me know whether or not to include that person closely in my life, because there are some consistent traits that are simply not healthy or helpful. And when I see some of those unhealthy consistencies emerging in me, I can work on flipping the coin and cultivating other, kinder, more loving dispositions.
This is one of the harder lessons from Max for me to live out. It is hard to be open to more of a person than I initially see or hear – to live in the fuzzy realm of complexity. It is just as hard to make firm decisions about whether or not I want a certain kind of consistent trait in my life, or how I can develop consistent traits that are beneficial to myself and the world around me. But the more I try to see both, the more I see the beauty in who Max is and who the people around me are.
So, thank you Max for showing me so many complex sides of who you are and for sharing your consistent loving presence with me. Thank you for challenging me to be open to the complexities around me as well as being aware of the consistent truths we all live out.